My Journey through Bipolar Depression

Another beautiful guest post on Depression by Electra Rose
The Forgotten, Women  Depression theme, Deborah Cauchi, SAA Professional Members' Galleries:
Artwork-From The Forgotten, Women Depression theme, Deborah Cauchi, SAA Professional Members’ Galleries
“Whenever you read a cancer booklet or website or whatever, they always list depression among the side effects of cancer. But, in fact, depression is not a side effect of cancer. Depression is a side effect of dying.”
― John Green, The Fault in Our Stars
Hi, I’m Electra Rose otherwise known as Bipolarpoet and my website is thechessboard1.wordpress.com .

I’ve been depressed from the age of thirteen and I’m now 21. First I was incredibly sad and emotional and it felt like the world was a terribly dark place. Then later when I was 19 I lost interest in everything and didn’t have the energy to get out of bed. It was so hard to go for a swim because I had such low energy levels. I have lacked enjoyment in things and seemed lifeless and very quiet socially when I’ve been depressed. Then there were the suicidal thoughts and the countless times I almost took my own life.

Depression is suffocating, isolating. You feel like you are stuck in a dark locked room without even a candle to give you light.
When you have experienced the highs of mania the lows of depression feel even worse as you know what you are missing and the comparison is so stark.
What helps me with my depression? Exercise, taking my medication, not isolating myself from people and asking for help when I need it, writing poetry, painting.
I find the creative arts very therapeutic and they help me with my bipolar recovery.
About two weeks ago I had a very severe depressive episode were I was genuinely thinking about ending my life but I’ve come out of it.
I have just applied to university accommodation for September and it looks like I will finally we’ll enough to study after 2 years.
                                    Copyright © Electra Rose January 2016

4 Comments Add yours

  1. Adaeze says:

    I’m rooting for you Electra, I’m firmly in your corner.

    Liked by 2 people

  2. Hello Electra Rose. I am happy to hear that you will be able to get back to your studies. Some days are good, some are not so good, but just stick to your medication and do more of what makes you feel better. My best wishes.

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  3. Awwwww Electra!!! Go on and disappoint depression!!!!! Rooting for ya

    Liked by 1 person

  4. Emem Umana says:

    You are a blessing struggling out of it

    Liked by 1 person

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