Another beautiful guest post on Depression by Electra Rose
Artwork-From The Forgotten, Women Depression theme, Deborah Cauchi, SAA Professional Members’ Galleries
“Whenever you read a cancer booklet or website or whatever, they always list depression among the side effects of cancer. But, in fact, depression is not a side effect of cancer. Depression is a side effect of dying.”
― John Green, The Fault in Our Stars
I’ve been depressed from the age of thirteen and I’m now 21. First I was incredibly sad and emotional and it felt like the world was a terribly dark place. Then later when I was 19 I lost interest in everything and didn’t have the energy to get out of bed. It was so hard to go for a swim because I had such low energy levels. I have lacked enjoyment in things and seemed lifeless and very quiet socially when I’ve been depressed. Then there were the suicidal thoughts and the countless times I almost took my own life.
Depression is suffocating, isolating. You feel like you are stuck in a dark locked room without even a candle to give you light.
When you have experienced the highs of mania the lows of depression feel even worse as you know what you are missing and the comparison is so stark.
What helps me with my depression? Exercise, taking my medication, not isolating myself from people and asking for help when I need it, writing poetry, painting.
I find the creative arts very therapeutic and they help me with my bipolar recovery.
About two weeks ago I had a very severe depressive episode were I was genuinely thinking about ending my life but I’ve come out of it.
I have just applied to university accommodation for September and it looks like I will finally we’ll enough to study after 2 years.
Copyright © Electra Rose January 2016