Dead Alive

Another beautiful guest post on Depression by “The Anonymous Cherif”

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Artwork: Chaos by Fabioselvatici

“I think eulogies are wasted on the dead. It’s the living who need to hear kind words spoken about them.”
― Jarod Kintz, This Book is Not FOR SALE

Dear diary
I have come to you again
To talk about one hell of a pain
That my inflamed head can not contain
Docs tag it depression
Hell Yeah! I can feel the intense pressure
I can feel the sourness it exchanges for my pleasure
And how it gives the finest things little measure
Dear diary
I have come to you again
To talk about my crisis
I hope you listen
Cos’ I have known what loneliness is
I have popped the pills
Still I have very weak a will
Still I look with blank eyes through this window sills
Dear diary
I know not what else to write
Spare my affairs askewed
And the insomnia that is my bed mate every night
Spare the heaviness of my own body
Like a bad weather with a sky that is cloudy
Spare my painting in the polar opposite of gaudy
As if a monochromatic screen in colors of penguins
Dear diary
I have come to you again
As a ghost with a bone
Am I alive? Or of the living a clone?
Cos’ the earth is dead to me
Cos’ it’s like everywhere were a cemetery
And the birds chirp dirges instead of songs
And the tall trees were but tombstones
Cos’ it’s like am living in the land of the non-living
Where darkness is the default
And the day just a bleaching of the night
Who knows this place?
That is as stiff and cold like dead man’s flesh
And everything you see sifts through darkness’ mesh
Who knows this place?
Where the wind is a cyclone
And the ocean currents are tsunami you bear alone
Dear diary
I am leaving you again
To reach for my chemicals and chalk
So bye dear
Till am drawn back to you
By my lingering mental strain


©The Anonymous Cherif

The Anonymous Cherif is a 400 level Medical Laboratory Science Student from the University of Lagos College of Medicine.

14 Comments Add yours

  1. this is deeply poetic, expresses the thoughts of the person in the poem with shouting the word “depression”. Think I am a bit of a critic but this sounds like a well planned execution, I can already feel the stage performance 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

  2. Zulayka says:

    Hmmm…I like this one!
    Well written piece 🙂
    Well done Cherif!

    Liked by 2 people

    1. Oluwanifemi says:

      As in…its rilli good…

      Like

    1. Oluwanifemi says:

      Awnn😊 ‘m so honoured…thnkx alot

      Liked by 2 people

  3. jstgina says:

    O.M.G. I love your blog. This is so creative; A pure work of art. Where have you been?
    Thanks for the follow tho?
    B.T.W. why don’t you have an about page?

    Liked by 1 person

  4. jstgina says:

    O.M.G. I love your blog. This is so creative; A pure work of art. Where have you been?
    Thanks for the follow tho!
    B.T.W. why don’t you have an about page?

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Oluwanifemi says:

      Awwwn 😊😊…thnkz alot…dnt knw..I used to av an abt page, but I deleted it…wld find tym to fix it bck…

      Liked by 1 person

    2. Oluwanifemi says:

      Also…thnkz for d flw😊

      Liked by 1 person

      1. jstgina says:

        You’re welcome!

        Liked by 1 person

  5. Bipolarpoet says:

    I will try and email you today about the depression piece. Sorry I haven’t sooner

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Oluwanifemi says:

      No problem…I ‘d be expecting it

      Liked by 1 person

      1. Bipolarpoet says:

        Sent

        Liked by 1 person

  6. mahekmithare says:

    Beautiful blog.💕💕💕 I love the way u write…its simply awe .
    You might just wanna read mine…:’)

    https://mahekmithare.wordpress.com/

    Like

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