LETTER TO A CERTAIN MISTER (I WONDER)

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To the future one and only,

I wonder what you are doing now. I wonder if you are drinking with your friends or praying you find me soon. I wonder if you are many years older than I am or just around my age group. I wonder if you have tattoos where no one can see them or if your body is spotless? I wonder if you have been heartbroken a number of times or if you have ever loved? Part of me hopes that you have loved before so you would know how to treat me when you find me. Yes, I am done searching for love and I hope your love finds me. Part of me hopes that you have never loved before so you would love me in a careful-carefree manner. I wonder if you are like me or the opposite. I would want you to be the opposite of me I am sure, so I wouldn’t get bored of you till I die. I wonder if I would uncover secrets that will test the love I would later feel for you. A part of me used to wish you would have honey coloured eyes and that you would be tall and light skinned. Right now, you could have dark brown eyes that glow and not be too built or big. I wonder if you are wondering why it is taking so long to realise it is you or if you wondering when you will ever meet me. You may never complete me as I do not feel incomplete, but I am sure you would complement me. I wonder if you would hold me tight while we sleep at night and notice the slightest things I do, from picking at my fingers to playing with a pen when I am nervous. I wonder if you will take me on romantic dates and cook sometimes. I know I will be submissive, but I cannot promise it will be at all times. I wonder if you are already good enough for me or you are still working on yourself. I wonder if you love God as much as I am starting to and would be the reason why I would be so much closer to Him. I wonder if you like the things I don’t or if you like what I like. I wonder if we would fight during the day and make up during the night with a simple phrase from either of us “Let’s stop being stupid”. I wonder if we would yell at each other only to laugh after few minutes of silence. I wonder if I meet you tomorrow, I would feel that spark they feel in books and movies. I wonder if I would snub you at first or you would find me annoying. I wonder if you would love all the tiny things that make me imperfect. I wonder if we would be perfect for each other or unravel each other’s mysteries as time goes I think I prefer the latter, it makes a relationship more valuable. I wonder if you would get angry at the sight or thought of a guy catcalling me. I wonder if you would pull me closer to you when another man is trying to be extremely nice to claim territory. I wonder if you are someone I have seen before, but a part of me wishes that I should be meeting for the first time so I would find you intriguing. A part of me wonders if all these thoughts are running through your mind as well. I wonder if you would be the type to always want to be around me and show that you love and respect me. I wonder if I would smile at you every morning while you sleep. I wonder if you would text me between work to check how I am doing even though we live together. I don’t expect you to be a singer or one who writes poetry. I guess this mushy book I have been reading is getting to me. I wonder if it will be like light meeting darkness. I wonder if you would always say the right thing and make me feel special at times. I know there are times that you would make my heart ache and I wouldn’t be able to stop loving you. I wonder if I will ever get tired. I wonder if you would surprise me once in a while. I wonder if I will be clingy or you would be unbearably cute. I wonder if you would be able to love me with all your heart. I wonder if you would travel often and ask me to come with once in a while I wonder if you would be the best dad to your children. I wonder if you are angry now or happy or just neutral. I wonder if you are ambitious. I wonder what you smell like strawberry? Or cherry? Or jasmine? I wonder what your smile will do to me. I wonder if you would call my full name all the time or call me your own special name. I wonder if as time goes on I wouldn’t look old to you. I wonder if you will like to see the world as I would like to see the world. I wonder if you like artworks. I wonder if we would order take out sometimes when we are too tired to cook. I wonder if you would massage my feet sometimes when I am tensed and I would return the favour when you are tensed. I wonder if you would listen to me while I go on about my day and I would do the same I wonder if you love football. I wonder what your friends are like and if they would be coming over. I wonder if you would like my hair long or short. I wonder what your lips will taste of, mint? I wonder what it would be like to finally meet you. I wonder if you would be as wonderful as my thoughts of you. I know one thing for sure, when I do meet you, I will love you with all my heart and till I am old and grey then go to meet my maker. I shall love you like I have never loved before and gotten hurt.

Yours lovingly,

A certain curious Miss.

© Adedoyin Adetutu

13 Comments Add yours

  1. I like your hope, Adetutu.

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  2. Adetutu says:

    Thanks Glory😂

    Liked by 1 person

  3. Adetutu says:

    And thank you Nifemi for featuring my work the second time. I appreciate this 😊

    Liked by 1 person

    1. adichiebabz says:

      You are wlcm…your writings are always of quality contents.

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  4. Adeyooye Oluwafisayo says:

    Woah…that was real,that was deep…and intense

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Oluwanifemi says:

      Thank u for visiting my blog….much love 😘😙

      Like

  5. Jimmy says:

    Amazing! This bⅼog looks exactly like my old one!

    It’s on a completely different subject but it haas pretty mᥙjch the same layout and design. Excellent choice of colors!

    Like

  6. yemmiemary says:

    Beautiful imagery and detailing

    Liked by 1 person

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